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It cuts into the one part of the day i have to myselff
Any parent knows that you can’t go straight from doing-stuff to sleep; your brain needs some veg-out stuff to just process things. (I mean, I can sleep, but something unpleasant builds up if you don’t let decompression happen)
By the time I’ve left work, done grocery shopping, made dinner, cleaned up after dinner, done laundry etc, it’s already late, and I’ve had no me-time to just decompress. (especially when chores drag out longer the more tired I get…)
And apart from that, there’s a mixture of FOMO, resentment and just clawing-for-agency that makes me rebel against the only boundary I can shift, even though I’m the one that suffers for it.
It’s only quiet after the kids go to sleep.
😯 this is me right now
The resentment part is so true, though I’m only hurting myself with my passive protest against sleep.
I AM THE NIGHT
Let’s. Get. DANGEROUS
Dark wing duck!
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the factory must grow
unfortunately, I share that same passion. Currently working on a 1000spm factory
I’ve studied for years and got a well paying job, I cannot just switch to something else without cutting my pay in half. But my work isn’t enjoyable, it outright sucks on most days. Going to bed early surrenders the only time of the day I can be happy and skips right to work again.
You’re putting money above happiness and wellbeing ?
What do you think I finance my happiness and wellbeing with? Having more ‘fun’ at work does not offset the new problems like worrying about rent or food. There is no happy middleground really, I mostly enjoy things that do not pay at all.
Sure we need money, but I personally always take a job that pay less but is fulfilling over a well paid one that makes me stressful / sad. At the end we spend most of the day working, it’s a matter of health.
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Not wanting to go to bed early.
because it skips to a time where I have a new day’s worth of responsibilities which sucks.
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Adhd
Random thought appears. Welp, guess I’m learning all about it for the next several hours.
Same, just lying down in bed won’t do it. I have to exhaust my brain first, then I can sleep.
Sleep procrastination.
Hyperfixation on random topics. The other day I was so invested in the history of mobile phones that I stayed up until 2:30am by accident while researching useless info.
Omg I feel this one 😂 do you have ADHD by any chance?
never been diagnosed with anything but it honestly wouldn’t shock me. ¯_(ツ)_/¯
I don’t want to die.
What if I die in my sleep.
What if the house catches fire and I can’t escape in time because I was asleep.
There are so many other things I could be doing.
I don’t have enough life left.
What if I miss something important or cool.
What if there’s a burglar when I’m asleep and it goes south and they murder me.
What if I have an aneurysm in my sleep.
What if I have a stroke in my sleep.
What if I have a heart attack in my sleep.
What if there’s a gas leak and the house explodes while I’m asleep.
What if there’s a CO leak and I just asphyxiate.
What if I just never wake up for no discernible reason.
I wanna play more video games.
I wanna browse the internet more.
I don’t want to have the bad thoughts come back like they always do when I try to sleep.
Ah yes, the “what if I fall asleep and X happens, I should stay awake” anxiety. Fighting the inevitable…
I’ve dealt with that all my life. Recently it got so bad that I was waking myself up in the middle of the night with these thoughts. I just got a prescription for lorazepam and it has helped more than anything I’ve tried. I hate sleeping pills because they give me a hungover feeling in the morning. This one just shuts down the anxiety so I can sleep naturally.
Late evening is the time where my mind works best.
But at what cost?
None. As a student I can sleep as long as I want c:
Currently? Back pain.
But in general my brain is dumb and does some dumb stuff.
The other night I wanted a nice cup of earl grey lavender tea to help me relax because I couldn’t fall asleep. Problem being was we had ran out of loose leaf tea bags. I dug out the small box of tea strainers we have collected over the year only to find out one hadn’t been properly cleaned and was slightly moldy. Others were surface rusted or tarnished.
My sleep deprived brain decided that the best decision was to pull out the dental picks, dremel tool, and other cleaning picks to get these tea strainers in tip top shape.
This is how my wife found me sitting on a bar stool hunched over the kitchen sink deep cleaning tea strainers at 3:30 in the morning.
Wanting to have a life as an adult after our kid goes to bed.
