• @melbaboutown@aussie.zone
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    6 days ago

    Yeah, I’m still in pain and keep tipping back into dehydration so nothing got done today and I spent it sleeping. Hate how this is so chronic and keeps relapsing. I just want to be doing stuff and living my life.

    I should be learning about drawing and colour mixing but I can’t. There’s so much to doing art ‘right’ that I’m not really able to take in right now. Major analysis paralysis and lack of focus.

    I’m wondering if I should just take the random tertiary colours and paint the crappiest still life ever just to get a feel for the process (and use these tubes up). But I can’t seem to make myself. Even the drawing step stalls. Drawing boxes and shapes is not really making sense to me because I spent so long untrained and just drawing contours by eye. Teaching yourself fundamentals later in life is hard.

    Art is probably not the hobby to be attempting when lacking energy and feeling low. Whether you make something bad or just don’t do anything it’s easy to feel like a failure either way.

    • @Seagoon_@aussie.zone
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      56 days ago

      have you thought of getting colouring books and using those for painting practice?

      one skill at a time, a colouring book can help you get brush skills

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        6 days ago

        I have colouring books (and pencils because I can’t paint in bed) but I don’t know.

        I feel like I’m just not doing well mentally or physically (unavoidable) and art has taken on some bad associations/pressure. It doesn’t lessen my desire to do it but it is messing with me.

        This is not my biggest concern really. It just sucks that I can’t even do my less physical hobbies 🙃

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          6 days ago

          so many hugs

          when i went to calligraphy class a big part of learning was to have a project

          so maybe write down some ideas for a project and start on that. Just do it. 🙂

          and do look after yourself 😘😘😘

          • @melbaboutown@aussie.zone
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            36 days ago

            Thanks. The colouring book is a good idea.

            I could either buy paint markers to be able to use on bed days or just try to take the pressure off myself about improving/doing a hard hobby